Cerita saja

Dear reader,

Actually, i dont know what should i write right now.. Because long time tak buka blog sendiri. Suddenly, this blues monday rasa nak buka and update something.

Almost 8 months xbuka blog. Macam2 komen dapat. By the way thanks for all the comments. Entah pape citer dalam blog nie kan..

Bila baca balik tergelak sorg2.. hahahah.. :p Zaman macam2 dugaan.. Lepas satu2 hal.. But now alhamdullilah semua nya makin ok..

Well a lot of things have change, moga yg datang memberikan perubahan yang baik untuk masa depan kita semua.

So after this,any news i will update here.. miss pulak nak updste story dalam nie setelah sekianlama x buka.

Nothing, Zero, Empty

Kenapa aku tak dengar cakap kawan2?

Kenapa aku ikot kata hati aku..

Kalo ikut kata hati nanti diri sendiri yg akan binasa..

Now, yes i am..! Aku rasa binasa sangat..

I really want that, but i cant..

I really want happiness. Now i feel like everything gone..

What i feel is only a short time, not forever and ever..

Can i get my happiness back?

Nobody know how and what i feel. Only god knows.

I hope all my wish will fulfilled.

Air mata la menjadi peneman aku..

Sampai bila nak jadi macam nie..

Kenapa aku yang kena hadapi semua masalah2 macam nie.

Can i survive for along time?? Can i pretend like i'm okay and cool person..

But inside my heart so many feeling i feel.

Frustrated, sadness, depressing, crying and keep crying.

Oh god! I really want to make a good decision. But im worried if i make a wrong decision.

Ya allah. kuat kan la diri aku..

Bagi la aku blh hadapi semua dugaan yang KAU bagi.

Beri la aku jadi seorang yang kuat, tak lemah lagi..

Kembalikan la kegembiraan dalam hidup aku.

Aku tak nak menangis lagi.. Temukan aku dengan kegembiraan aku.

Temukan aku dengan ketenangan moga segala kesedihan aku berbalas dengan kebaikan.

Aku yakin setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah nyer.

Dan aku harap dengan dugaan ini memberi kebaikan utk aku di masa akan datang.

AMIN!!!

T.kasih atas segala penipuan!

Da lama ta update blog. But today apa yg aku nk update sesuatu yg tak mungkin aku lupa!

Hati kecewa, saket atie, bengang, marah, frust, fed up.. Semua nie aku rasa..

T.kasih kerana dah menyakitkan atie aku, perbodohkan aku selama 2 hari nie.

Segala tipu helah kau yg terbaik dari ladang. Thumbs up!

T.kasih juga sbb buat aku risau, menangis tanpa henti.

Dan kau just off nset demi nk enjoy your life without thinking about me..

Ignore my call n msj macam aku nie SAMPAH, PATUNG, KAYU untuk kau.

T.kasih sbb cari aku bila perlu, bila sunyi, bila rasa "rindu"..

T.kasih sbb kau lebih penting kan kawan kau dr penting kan hati seseorg yg patot kau jage..

Aku tahu niat kau baik, aku happy sbb kau dilahir kan dgn sifat mcm tue..

Tp kau juga patot fikir perasaan aku. Perasaan seorang yg sentiasa bersama kau selama nie.

And bkn girl yg baru kau kenal dan dipanggil "KAWAN".

Dia mungkin kawan bg kau tp bg aku dia musuh aku sampai mati..

Dan sampai mati sekali pown aku tak kan maafkan dye!!

Mungkin makan masa utk maafkan ataw selama2 nye tak kan maafkan apa yg da berlaku..

T.kasih sbb tak jujur dengan aku.. Segala janji2 kau selama nie pegi la buang dalam laut.

Bg ikan2 makan, kenyang gak dorg. Tue pown kalo dorg nak la.!!

Aku hargai kau selama nie, aku hargai segala pengorbanan kau pd aku.

And aku hargai hubungan kite dr mula hingga sekarang tp mulai skrg aku tak nk lagi nk hargai ape yg kau buat utk aku. Cukop la selama nie aku hargai, amik berat pasal kau. Tp segala pengorbanan aku kau tak pernah nmpk dan hargai.. Aku da leteh.!!! Leteh dengan permainan kau..

Mungkin aku terlalu berlembot sgt. Thats why ko pijak aku kan!!!

Aku akan bgn balik.. Mgkn juga aku bkn mcm dulu. Yg blh ko pijak2 smp hancor!

Aku akan bangun, bangun dengan segala nsht kawan2!

Insyallah, aku akan jd org lain bkn syera skrg lagi.

Aku tak kan benti berdoa moga aku ade kekuatan utk bangun balik dan jd org lain!

:: Muhammad Zakwan, i love you! but what happen its not easy to forget. U broke my heart, u make me cry.. And its not easy. Gimme time utk kembali pulih mcm dulu.. Maybe just for a while or maybe not. Im not sure. U happy rite wif what u have done to me.. Thanks again! To that girl smp mati aku benci kau!!! Tak pernah aku rasa sebenci nie kt org lain. Thanks sbb wt aku rasa benci. Ko kotor kan atie aku dgn rasa benci! Thanks to both of u!! ::

Nikah Kak Seri

Hari ni hari bersejarah bg sepupu aku..

Bernikah di Masjid Sri Rampai..

Aku, mama n fadh paling lmbt dtg. haha.

Akad nikah da setel baru sampai. Yela.. ktorg naik taxi je g sana.

Ayah kerja, wanie kerja.

Sampai2 bergambar sakan la ktorg semua.

Lepas nikah g makan kt surau rumah dorang pulak..

Makan punya makan kasi kenyang. haha.

Memang kenyang pown.. Even tak la sedap sgt lauk nyer.

Overall semua berjalan dengan lancar.

So selamat menjadi suami isteri pd sepupu ku..

Bila la pula turn aku. huhu.

Seronok pulak tgk org kawen nie. hehe.

Antara gambar-gambar sepanjang hari ni.

.semasa akad nikah.
(tp da abis pown)


. bersama si pengantin.


.candid time.


.the hantaran.


. wif ada.


.bersama mak uda n ada.


. wif iman n aizat.


.wif kak seri.


.bergambar bersama mak long yg akan pg umrah.

p/s : semoga kak seri n suami bahagia selalu. And pd mak long n pak long moga selamat sampai n semua baik2 masa pg umrah and selamat balik ke sini blk. AMIN.

I got what I want

I got what i want..

Alhamdullilah.. Even mahal tapi berbaloi.

And im satisfied! hehe..

**Thank to Eto, coz teman kita keluar. hehe.. **

Hutang oh Hutang

Well, kenapa aku cakap macam nie?

Nie disebabkan PTPTN dah bagi surat.

Bkn surat terakhir atau amaran.

Tp surat minta mula kan pembayaran..

Pinjam punya la rm15 ribu jerk..

Tp datang2 surat tgk kene bayar rm17 ribu lbh.

Sebab apa?? Sebabnya di tambah lagi 2k lbh utk kos pentadbiran.

Pergh.. memang banyak giler.

Belum lagi kalau dapat sambung degree.

Memang hampir 30k lbh la jawabnya..

Nak tunjuk gambar tak blh. huhu.. So siapa2 da dpt surat tu mst tahu la.

Mari la kita sama-sama mula kan pembayaran balik..

**Sebelum kene blacklist better bayar.. Tak blh tangguh2 nie nnt cnfrm blambak kena bayar. Nak g luar negara pown tak blh nnt. huhu **

Oh, Bobo..

Begini ceritanyer, baru jap td aku kuar klinik haiwan.
Kesian kat bobo, sakit da msk 2-3 ari da..
Bobo demam, cirit birit, selsema.. Sampaikan tak selera nk makan.
Cirit bobo tak payah cakap la.
Kaw2 punya busuk kt luar rumah..
(pg td cuci luar, penat gak la.)

So dipendekkan cerita,
Aku bawak bobo g klinik haiwan kat seksyen 14..
Naik motor nie dengan ayah.. Bayang kan betapa susah nyer.
Even letak dia dalam kotak, sampai aku kena cakar lagi.
(berdarah jari aku)

Doktor cek cakap bobo demam, selsema..
Doktor td inject bobo kat dua2 belah kaki belakang ..
Dengan dua kali injection, 1 utk antibiotik and 1 more for demam..
Nasib baik bobo ok jerk. Cume bsg sikit la mulut dia. haha.
Bobo dpt ubat pil tok vitamin n antibiotik.
Sekali pakej dengan 1 tin makanan dia.
Makanan tu bg selera balik kt bobo. Memang selera sgt bobo td la.
Semua nya td charge total : RM58.
(blh tahan gak erk ubt2 binatang nie)


.my bobo.


.the medicine.

::nie la pengalaman pertama bawak kucing naik motor.. tawakal jerk td jadi pape. dah la bobo asik bergerak2.. Cian bobo, confirm ta selesa. huhu. Harap bobo cepat sihat!! ::

Bersama mereka

Baru nk update rini. Semalam ta sempat.

Actually, benda ni berlaku semalam. hehe
Semalam hangout dengan tieta n pyka!
So yg amik dorg confirm2 la my bf, Jb..

Ktorg lepak shah alam jerk.
G makan n lepak kat Le Lac, Seksyen 7..
Dorg kene balik awal..
Coz dorg kene masuk hostel before pukol 11..
So kene la anta secepat yg mungkin. hehe.
Over all, i'm happy semalam dapat jmp dorg sume.

Ok. tak nk citer banyak..
Nie gambar2 semalam.. hehe.


.love 1.


.love 2.


.love 3.


.love 4.


.love 5.


.love 6.

::Masa nie ada something yg tak pernah dlm sejarah berlaku. haha. Dimana aku takkan lupa smp bila2. malu2. Hal lain lagi, bila nk anta pyka n ta.. Blh plak pyka bagi hadiah muntah dye kt ktorg. haha. (pyka tamo mara erk) ::

Confuse

Now i lil bit confius.

Confuse to choose which one is better..

Either c5-03 or c6..

Wah.. both of them touchscreen. Just one difference is c6 have a keyboard.

N quit expensive. Difference rm100 to c5.

My friend and bf ask me to buy c6.

But i'm a stingy person so how.. haha..

I have one week left. But still cannot make decision..

C5-03

is cute, thin..
(i like it)

but

c6

is more elegant, smart.

have a keyboard.
(i like this too)

Which one i want to buy??

*still thinking*

I cant wait! Tunggu aku!

Ok! Now i'm counting the days.

More than 1 week to go..

Hopefully, tak ada pape mslh nnt..

So kalau tak ada pape mslh, insyallah i'll buy it!

Coz i really want it.. No matter what happen..

My C5-03 kene beli dulu, baru fikir bnd lain..

c510 bye2! I'll give u to someone else. Gonna misz u.

C5-03, u wait for me k. I'll buy u.!

I dun want to use SE anymore.

Cepat jer jahanam. haha!

Ingin setia kepada nokia pulak!

Cepat la masa berlalu. N cepat gak la dapat gaji for this month..

Really want this! huhu..


Nokia C5-03

* tak sabar rasanye. tp sdh nye pg beli sorg2 jerk.. no bf no frend! huhu..
tp tapela. nk wt mcm mana.. hehe.

Outing Lagi!

Wah.! rasa mcm da lama ta update blog..

Yela bkn ada cite pown nk update kan.

But today, i can update my blog.! yeyeh!

Because why?

Because today, keluar g jejalan.

Da lama sgt ta kuar since his going too busy with his works.

Gile miss sgt kt my bf.. hehe..

So kene pulak ari minggu dia cuti. So ktorg kuar la..

Hari ni kuar jejalan kat The Curve.

Makan2 and watch movie. hehe.

Makan di TGI FRIDAY.

Tq to my bf! For your treat.

After that we watch movie. Tgk FASTER..

Hm.. Best gak cite tue.

Over all, not much activities for today.

But i'm satisfied! Dapat kuar tak ada la bosan giler.

Da berapa minggu ta jmp. Terperap jerk kt umah.


love 1


love 2


love 3


love 4


love 5


love 6

Mood : happy! tq mr zakwan :)

45 Things

45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her. 24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly. 35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love ..

p/s : i wish my bf read this! haha.

Tolonglah!

Syera tolonglah jadi kuat..

Jangan lah menangis lagi. Jangan lembik sangat.

Kuatkan diri terima apa je ujian dan dugaan yang berlaku dalam hidup kau!

Tolong la jangan terlalu fikirkan sangat pe berlaku.

Semua benda blh setel. Sama ada nak ataw tak nak jerk.

Kalau la air mata nie tak ada kan bagus. Tak perlukan air mata.

Air mata kau tak blh selesaikan apa2 benda yang berlaku dalam hidup kau.!

Please.. Please.! Be strong. Only u can change yourself.!

Nobody can help you.

*Kenapa aku rasa aku nk wt benda jahat! Da banyak kali da aku fikir sama ada nak ataw tak jerk. Benda yang orang lain tak kan pernah fikir aku kan buat. Bukan maksud curang atau apa. Tp sesuatu untuk diri aku sendiri. Ya allah, jangan la bagi aku buat benda tue.

Why it so hard to trust!

Why could this happen?

I trust you but not at all.

I'm sorry its hard to trust you than your friend.

U never understand me.

Why i be like this.

I'm just afraid if i trust you, but u never appreciate it.

I am just too worry, scared! Thats it!

I need you to understand my situation.

Don't accuse me with any perception.

Please forgive me, for what happen!

Sorry because i don't trust you as before.

I really want it happen as before, but really need some times..

Hope you will know this.

You’ve pierced my heart and left me to die I sit all alone and wonder why It’s hard to go on without a heart It was your razorblade words that tore it apart Scribbling down sentences to describe how I feel Nothing I write can feel this real The mirror reflects a pain that will never fade I’m trapped in a mess that I’ve made Duct taping broken pieces that fit into place Mascara running down my face At a frantic pace my fingers missed A lose piece fell and slit my wrist Just enough to see a peek of red The way this night ended I’d rather be dead Trust that little voice in your head that says, "Wouldn't it be interesting if..", And then do it!